LOUISE Thompson said she is worried about brain damage following a recent hospital run.
The Made in Chelsea star almost died twice after giving birth to Leo, her first child, last year.
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Louise has struggled with debilitating mental, and physical problems since she became a mother. She is determined to overcome these issues.
After receiving blood results that were deemed ‘worrying’, she was admitted to hospital.
Louise updated her Instagram followers on her current health status. In a long post, she said she feels different and is trying to cope with the undiagnosed condition.
She wrote, “I feel like I’ve erased all of my past and begun a new life.” I am sometimes sick. People tell me how far they’ve come, but my memory isn’t clear.
“I can remember a weird amount of things from my childhood… sensory things will remind me of the strangest memories from way back when I was 5-15, but then I’ve sort of erased everything between then and now.
“Now that I mention it, sometimes ALL I can feel is sensory stuff, like the feeling I get when I go from a hot room to a cold room and it helps me connect to the world around me.”
The 32-yearold explained that she struggles to communicate with daily episodes that leave her mind feeling confused.
She stated that she was struggling to continue living a normal life. I feel very sick every day and sometimes for hours. Every other day, I feel like I’m having a mini stroke or brain damage.
“Maybe it’s just a strange processing experience. It’s like I’m either way too high or really low in some chemical/hormone. However, I have trouble thinking or speaking properly during these episodes.
“It sort of feels like I’m having a major allergic reaction to something in my brain. I go from feeling really low and agitated to then feeling a rush of something and then I get the worst cramping around my pelvis but then my brain levels out, a bit like the chemicals have been restored. I’ve been told that this isn’t a result of my mental health medication?!? Can anyone help with the physical side of things?”
Louise claimed that she tried cutting out certain foods from her diet, but that it didn’t seem to work.
Describing her body: “out of balance”Louise stated that she experiences severe pains in her neck, head, and right side of her face.
“I know that I want to go back to being normal Louise so why won’t my body and brain just let me,”She was curious. “As someone who is still trying to shift my label of a ‘control freak’, this has been very difficult to manage. Because I’m always seeking answers and am not getting any results, it’s hard for me to control. I don’t believe anyone I have spoken to can relate.
“Just when I think I might be turning a corner I find myself feeling really ill. That puts me right back in a bad place. Then I question : Will I ever feel healthy again? And more importantly will I ever be able to think like a normal person again?”
Although the mother-of-1 is a big fitness fan, she’s unable to work out in the same way as before.
“It’s becoming really boring not being in a position to do the things I love even with some Leo help. It’s a constant struggle, but sometimes it’s manageable.
“Sometimes I have a great time. But then, when I’m feeling down, I don’t know how I can have a good experience. It’s just a matter of repeating this. Unfortunately, I cannot just get out of this funk with positive thoughts or ‘feel good” practices.
“Sometimes I think, f**k people must think this whole thing is a massive joke, because they will never EVER understand what it is like to have gone through what I’ve been through or to sit in my head for even a minute.”
She promised to keep fighting for her recovery, but also admitted to being angry about the things she’s going through.
“So to answer where I’m at now… I’m at a cross roads, I’m in an uncomfortable place,”She ended. “I don’t know what I want. This experience must bring some good. This experience has given me a lot of ideas.
“My family think I should work because I loved it before. I don’t like people pushing me though. Hey, it sure as hell can’t make things any worse. And if this helps anyone else feel a bit more normal then I will get a bit of a kick out of that. How u doin?”
Ryan Libbey, her fiance shared details of Louise’s most recent hospital stay.
This happened hours after she had posted an Instagram photo of herself looking sad. “I just want someone to fix me.”
She continued: “My poor body and brain are all over the place.”
Ryan wrote from the hospital tonight, explaining that she had been treated “alarming”He was able to pass the test and declared that he was “devastated”.
He uploaded a photo of him wearing a cap and mask as he waited in a corridor. Along with a heartbreaking message.
Ryan wrote: “Just like I thought I was getting to a point where I could put some energy into my therapy and healing,” Louise is still struggling with many things every day, and some of these symptoms are getting worsening.
“We’re back at the hospital now (this time privately, since we’ve been so letdowned by the NHS), Louise has received alarming blood results.
“At the moment, I don’t know what this means, but it is devastating to be sitting outside a hospital waiting area, seven months after Louise gave birth.”
“I’m hanging on by a thread. I try to work, keep the business alive, make money to support Louise, Leo, and keep up with my ambitions (and failing).
‘It’s not like me to share stories like this but I feel so s*** at the moment. Maybe this unload will help.”
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